Update

Well, I just thought that after that terribly sad post I should give a little update.... For the last few days we've been trying a new eating routine... we feed Elisa solids, nurse her, and then offer her soy formula. And guess what? She's been sucking down the formula! I guess that she hasn't been getting enough milk, and most of the time I didn't even suspect that she was still hungry!

There had been a few times when I thought that she was still hungry after nursing... but she wouldn't eat any more solid food, so I figured she wasn't that hungry. And most of the time she seemed perfectly content. Even now, she'll get done nursing and want to get down and play, and I think to myself, "Oh, she's not hungry, she's not going to drink any formula." And then she'll amaze me by drinking 6 oz! Wow.

Of course I have mixed feelings about it. Mostly I just feel so relieved and glad that she's getting enough calories now. But I also feel a ton of other emotions: fear (what if her slow weight gain has long term effects?), inadequacy (why can't I produce enough milk?), guilt (I should have known), and the list goes on.

So, anyway... that's the update. Thanks for your comments, phone calls, and prayers. I really doubt that there's anything seriously wrong with her. I think that she was just not getting enough milk. Hopefully it will just be a matter of time until she's chubby as can be. I'm not sure when I hear back about the blood and urine tests... but I'm not concerned about it. I think that just this simple change in diet will fix it!